This is so hard. I wish I had a whoopee answer but as one of the very wise women on this site says the answer is to plod on. You put one foot in front of the other, repeat the process. You find after a while that you have travelled far further than you thought you could. Then you take a deep breath and do it again. Great you have the support of your kids. You are already a long way through treatment. That lurking feeling about recurrence is a hard one to lose but bit by bit we all reclaim our lives. I hope some others can suggest some practical help as many others have had to face similar difficulties. And you are not whinging!! You deserve a medal.