Hello from Janey

I to completely understand Janey ... I had my last chemo 2 weeks ago which I am so relieved about but it also terrifies me ....particularly being TNBC. That's it . I don't need radiotherapy and there's nothing else to take . So it's sort of like being thrown out of a plane with a parachute with no instructions!! Hope the thing works and hope I don't slam into the ground ! Physically I'm great but I've had a few flashbacks and nightmares too . I think it takes time for your mind to catch up with your body . They encourage women at my breast centre to see the psychiatrist there post -op and I was reluctant at first but it has been invaluable for me . We have a monthly appointment which is great because as things evolve and change she has such a great way of helping me understand and get a different perspective on what's happening , other peoples behaviour etc . I'm sure there would be similar at Peter Mac . I figure we just need to grow wings now Janey and fly so we don't feel like we're falling into space :) I've been doing every bird related yoga pose I've ever known and I think my wings are becoming a bit more reliable every day . ! I also think this is a really really common phenomenon, but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with . All the best to you Janey . You were always so kind to me when I was first here and I hope the coming weeks will be easier for you xxx Karen