Hello from Janey

Janey, when my treatment finished the first time around I found it really hard. Everyone wanted to celebrate with me, and kept telling me how great it was and all the while inside I was feeling lost and lonely and scared. I actually missed the appointments etc. I know that must sound weird, but I did. Second time around I was better, but I'm not sure if that was because I was busy planning a reconstruction and so was still seeing doctors. I am still probably going to have a revision, and so as such still see my PS. maybe at the end when everything is finally finished I will feel weird again. Who knows. I do however feel stronger this time around. I think there is a huge expectation from others who don't really get what we have been through for us to put on a big smile and get on with life, however for many of us we feel like...OMG what have I been through and how can I move on? Hang in there beautiful lady, it does get better. I actually had some phone counseling from the cancer council that really helped me at the time. Be kind to yourself and know we all get it. Hugs Paula xxxxx