@Shorelle - there's nothing wrong with wallowing in where you are at for awhile! It helps to bring things into perspective! Yes there are others worse off than us however this is about you, how you feel and how to fill those cracks in eventually, so that you can concentrate on recovery. Be kind to yourself, it's a helluva lot that you've been through already and we all get it! We are all in this together!
Dust those books and pamphlets off the shelf and have a bit of a flick. There is some useful information in there!
Do you know about the Look Good, Feel Better workshops?
https://lgfb.org.au/who-we-are/Check it out, it's free and it's for us!
Do you know about the Otis Foundation?
http://www.otisfoundation.org.au/They provide free holidays for us! Check it out, it maybe the medicine that you and your family need.
Hope that helps! Take care and sending you a virtual hug from me xx