Thanks ladies. It took a couple of hours but I calmed down eventually. I'm going to say something when I eventually get the call to say that my item is in.
Jessica, I think you are right that it is a sign that I needed a bit of kindness to myself. Last week was the first time in 9 months that I managed to work full time ( I have still been working part time throughout my treatment out of necessity) I was tired. So instead of cleaning the house like I planned to do, I rested for the whole day. It's made a difference to how I'm feeling generally. Today we are going out for a family lunch as today is hubby's actual birthday.
Thanks for listening.
Karen xox