I am so sorry that you are feeling so down. Is the sun shining where you live? Can you sit outside and soak up those beautiful rays? Do you have a pet you can stroke? Can you put on your favourite music? These things never fail to lift my spirits. Although I am so grateful for my beautiful little 6 year old daughter, I am also very sad that she will be left without a mother so young, as I have advanced secondary cancer. CANCER SUCKS! Please be strong Terry, I am sure you are loved by so many people. My prayers and good wishes are with you today. XXXX Cathy.