Hey Jules! I am not sure if I will be having the expanders removed and silicone implants put in or not. The plastic surgeon said he does leave the expanders in some women.....although I must say the shape is not quite 'real'. Will find out more next Thursday. Thankful it is winter as scarfes have been a wardrobe staple for me! Totally hear you re sleeping! My beloved was recently thrilled to find me on my side in bed....exclaiming ' we can spoon again!!!' I know it can be rough, but keep up the beautiful postive attitude! (I truly believe it helps!!) Will keep in touch xxx