Guilty

Hi Dene,

No you are not a wooss.  I have just finished 6 rounds of Chemotherapy on the 3rd Sept - it truly has been the hardest 6 months of my life.  I have unfortunately suffered every side effect possible on chemo - it has totally affected every minute of my life, I truly do not know how people do work whilst undertaking chemo, from the day of my Chemo Infusion up till day 10/11 I just could not function -then you have from day 11/20 to try and recover before the next round, not an easy task - I have had huge issues with Thrush both orally and down stairs, I needed to take Fungasil for the oral thrush (believe me this side effect alone is horrendous) and now have shares in the Canesten company for the amount of tubes of cream that I have had to purchase over the past 6 months LOL!!!!!

Please be kind to you, if you feel you cannot cope with work then if finances allow ask your work if you can take some leave - I was working when I discovered I had Breast Cancer - I have taken time off on Medical Leave - I also have a beautiful boss who brings the office to me, it has on occassions kept me sane.

Never feel guilty for how you feel, being diagnosed with Breast Cancer is a big deal and a lot of information to take in, I have likened this journey to being a catapillar my diagnosis was my cocoon - my surgery on 8/10 will be my coming out of this cocoon to being a beautiful butterfly.

I have over the past 6 months cried, laughed, stressed, viewed my mortality, but I now see the light at the end of the tunnel - I am a fighter and will not let this insidious disease take me.

Take as much time as YOU need, it is you that is going through this - it is going to take a lot of YOU to fight the good fight - YOU need to do what is right for you to cope, bring your family along with this fight, involve your friends - do not do it alone, you will need the support - my friends and family have given me the strength to survive this journey, but at the same time they have also understood that sometimes I just needed to be on my own and look out for ME.

I have also taken this time to enjoy being artistic in how I wear head gear to cover my lovely bald head - I have tried everything and now just wear scarves and dress them up - I get compliments where ever I go - this alone makes me feel great.

I have a large network of friends on FB - I have now successfully gotten all my female friends to have Mammograms this alone has made this journey worthwhile.

YOU can do this Dene - you will survive. 

Regards

Sharon