Going ahead Alone
2022 has been a tough year - and then it got tougher again.
Hubby's chemo treatment changed in Dec and from then on, sadly, he lost his hair (of which he was always VERY proud, to have a full head of luxurious hair at age 85) & sadly also had trips to hospital for infections & reactions to vaccinations.
Then, when his cancer markers went thru the roof in late March, the decision was made to stop chemo.
Sadly, after doing so well til the end of last year (after being diagnosed Stage 4 in January '21) my beloved husband passed away on May 29th after a sudden downturn in mobility and function. He was active & alert, swimming at the Hydro Pool on the Monday & attended the dentist with me on the Tues, but then had difficulty standing up. I had to call the Ambos and he was taken to hospital on the Wed, where I was told he would not be going home. I was with him 24/7, with a bed/chair set up for me in his room and helped the nurses with his care. Family gathered, including our stepson & wife who flew in from NZ - and he passed peacefully, early on the Sunday morning.
We had a lovely Farewell Service overlooking his favourite beach that he had run along daily, for almost 20 years.
It is tough. It is just SO tough, going it alone after a wonderful partnership of nearly 40 years.
The grief is 24/7 and ongoing - in small waves & big waves - at any time, night & day.
I've had wonderful support from family & friends & also my close friends here on the forum and I thank you for that. xx You've helped keep me sane. xx
The paperwork & legal stuff is ongoing & very emotional ....
And then, just to make things even more difficult, our ground floor level & garage were water impacted by the deluge 3 weeks ago & I now have carpet pulled up & stuffed tools & musical instruments & am awaiting an insurance assessment re repair or replacement.
It is not what I really needed at this point in time - tho it is keeping me busy, which is good, sort of. :(
Life is tough just now.
take care xx. Give your partner a special hug xx
Hubby's chemo treatment changed in Dec and from then on, sadly, he lost his hair (of which he was always VERY proud, to have a full head of luxurious hair at age 85) & sadly also had trips to hospital for infections & reactions to vaccinations.
Then, when his cancer markers went thru the roof in late March, the decision was made to stop chemo.
Sadly, after doing so well til the end of last year (after being diagnosed Stage 4 in January '21) my beloved husband passed away on May 29th after a sudden downturn in mobility and function. He was active & alert, swimming at the Hydro Pool on the Monday & attended the dentist with me on the Tues, but then had difficulty standing up. I had to call the Ambos and he was taken to hospital on the Wed, where I was told he would not be going home. I was with him 24/7, with a bed/chair set up for me in his room and helped the nurses with his care. Family gathered, including our stepson & wife who flew in from NZ - and he passed peacefully, early on the Sunday morning.
We had a lovely Farewell Service overlooking his favourite beach that he had run along daily, for almost 20 years.
It is tough. It is just SO tough, going it alone after a wonderful partnership of nearly 40 years.
The grief is 24/7 and ongoing - in small waves & big waves - at any time, night & day.
I've had wonderful support from family & friends & also my close friends here on the forum and I thank you for that. xx You've helped keep me sane. xx
The paperwork & legal stuff is ongoing & very emotional ....
And then, just to make things even more difficult, our ground floor level & garage were water impacted by the deluge 3 weeks ago & I now have carpet pulled up & stuffed tools & musical instruments & am awaiting an insurance assessment re repair or replacement.
It is not what I really needed at this point in time - tho it is keeping me busy, which is good, sort of. :(
Life is tough just now.
take care xx. Give your partner a special hug xx
