Sorry to hear lifes a bit of a struggle right now but I have found this website excellent for support and info (unfortunatly not during my treatment, only recently) and I'm sure you will too. I have "met" some wonderful people and sometimes just sharing your thoughts seems to make your worrys a little lighter. We're all here to listen and support each other. If you havent already been told about the "My Journey" package that BCNA offer it's well worth getting as it has a statewide services and info flyer and i know my WA one has a BC clinical phycology free service for you and your family. My son was 10 when I was diagnosed and struggled, the cancer council paid for a phycologist to talk to both of us and it really helped him. You didnt mention a partner, but there is also a cd that comes for them as I know my hubby struggled and still wanted to be my rock (which he was)and flyers for friends and family too, so they know how to help best. I will be thinking of you on the 15th, I hope you have a speedy recovery, take your time, your body will tell you when you've had enough, and remember your never alone :)