Hi Kath
Firstly let me wish you a Happy New year and hope that 2011 sends you health, love and happiness.
Secondly, sorry you are feeling like this, but i think how you are feeling is normal, well it is how I felt. I seemed to go through the motions while going through surgery and chemo and then when chemo finishes everyone assumes you are "better" and life should return to how it was before....WRONG!!. I actually spoke to a physcologist (spelling??) and told her that I was not copeing with my "new" life after all the drama of the past.
Give yourself time to adjust and ask for help. I got some day care for my two year old and some home help for the household chores and just gave myself some time and here I am three years down the track and I am still adjusting to my new life. I think when you are diagnosed there is so much going on and life is busy with appointments etc, then when it slows down you have time for all the emotions of the past 6 months or so to catch up and sink in,
Good luck with radiation.
Tanya xx