It's okay not to just be strong for others. Have a day where you stsy in your PJs if you want, cry a lot and eat...well something that you might still enjoy on chemo. I did that. I also pulled myself up and went out and put on the brave face for others. Night time is often the worse when the fear creeps in. My husband did counselling when I was having trreatment. He really struggked in supporting me other than saying you just gotta think positive....ffs...it makes no difference and it feels dismissive of my feelibgs. But we got through and now life has gone on...hopefully cancer free. Wishing you well for surgery. I was relieved to have my cancer removed. Kath x