Feeling low :(
I have always tried to stay strong throughout my journey. I have put on a brave face and barley shed any tears. I know that I am one of the lucky ones and feel so guilty when I complain to friends ab...
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Thank you ALL for the messages of support. I was going to thank you all with a personal message, but my list of things to do today is growing, so I'm just doing a bulk message. I really appreciate the lovely things that you all said. This site is fantastic.
It is so good to be able to write how I'm feeling and have someone understand and know what you are going through. Even after posting my grumbling message I felt better. Just to put it out there helped with how I'm feeling. I have been through a lot (both in my personal life and my extended family) over the last 10 years and I guess I have always been looked upon as a strong person. One that has coped with 'everything' so well. One that has managed to work my way through things and come out stronger on the other side.
Over the last few months people have assumed that I'm coping well, and I guess this is what I have tried to put accross. I also believe that people would rather think that everything is ok, as some people don't like knowing what is really happening. Now that I look 'normal' on the outside (my breasts appear to be the same pre surgery) everyone assumes that my journey has ended. I get regular comments about how good I'm looking, which is frustrating as it's far from what I'm feeling inside. If I tell anyone what my hard uncomfortable lumps really feel like, the daily problems that they bring and that it will be this way for another 4 months before more surgery the response is often surprise.
I have tried to reach out to a few friends in the last week, but they haven't had the time to talk. I'm guessing that they are also assuming that I'm ok as the surgery was several months ago. It's so hard to find time for yourself to try and work through things, when you have 2 young boys and I work from home. Any spare time I have is spent at my desk trying to get work done. I know that I need to talk to a professional about what is going through my head. I guess I have just been thinking that it will all work out and be ok. I'm now looking for the positive me to return, so I can be productive - both with my family and work. Thank you again xxx