I read your post and I felt for you so much. I was all set to start typing a response to you but I got a phone call and had to put it off. So when I got back to your post I found that all the ladies here have said everything I wanted to say and said it beautifully. Emma, you have every right to vent your feelings. You are no different than the rest of us. You have had an extremely traumatic diagnosis like we all have. You've been through major surgery and are grieving for the loss of your breasts. Let alone your own trauma, this would have brought back the trauma of losing your mum. Your devastation and distress are perfectly understandable. And we all go through feelings of guilt and misery through this journey. Be kind to yourself Emma.
Sending you hugs
Janey xxx