Hey Marg, Can you perhaps try the Fodmap diet to see if that helps settle your system down and then start adding foods back in. It's devastating when you feel that your whole life is ruled by this disease BUT you lovely are far far stronger than that. By all means be pissed off, vent, rage get it out of your system. Your lovelies are developing their own spy movie revolving around you not because they are bored shitless and want something to do but because they love and care for you (whether you feel you deserve it or not - you obviously do ;)). Wishing you strength to want to keep going and sending you huge hugs. Xx Cath