Hi @greyhound
I think anxiety is perfectly normal when you start your chemo journey. My first round was early November last year and I was super anxious and I cried nearly the whole way there and the whole time I was at the hospital. I found that being that upset and distressed did not help me at all. As silly as it may sound at the moment, the calmer you can go in, the better it will be (as far as better in a sh*tty situation can be!!)
Everyone else has given you super advice, take whatever medication they suggest to help you through, listen to your body as only you know it best. This time really needs to be about you and only you and what is best for you to get through.
As Afraser also suggested counting down the treatments is good, each one certainly means you are closer to the end and if you go from double figures to single its something worth celebrating (for me it was anyway!)
Wishing you all the best xx
