Beck34
10 years agoMember
Beck 34
I'm a 34 year old wife & mother of two children under 6. I had grade 3 triple negative breast cancer and had a double mastectomy on 24th July. I've just had my 3rd AC chemo treatment and emotionall...
Hi Beck,
I don't understand all of what you are going through as we have different diagnoses and thus a different treatment approach but I do understand the guilt with regards to your children.
We're the same age too! :-)
I am typing this from my phone with my right hand as my 7 week old sleeps on my left arm and I dare not wake her now!
My biggest guilty feeling was finding out I couldn't breast feed her. I am yet to have a mastectomy but one is planned about 6 months from now once chemo finishes but as my cancer is hormone sensitive, it was picked up at 37 weeks pregnant, breastfeeding would increase the hormones and promote the cancer.
I also have guilt that she was induced earlier than she was "ready" and all of these things are for my benefit, not hers. And I get the not playing so much thing although she is only just old enough now for play but for me it is more about having to leave her with my husband or my Mum so I could go to appointments or have surgery etc.
I just remind myself that I am doing all this to be her Mummy long term and that is so much more important than a few missed play sessions here and there. Try as much as you can to think about the big picture and like everyone else has said, accept any offers of help that come your way. I certainly have and it's one thing I don't feel guilty about.
Good effort on joining bcna as hopefully reading others stories and these replies helps maintain your sanity!
I can't imagine what it must be like with 2 little munchkins running around but I'm sure you are doing your best! At least I can put mine in one place and she stays put... for now!!
Best of luck and please stay in touch if you wish. xx