Dear Helen
Noone can answer your questions re time. There are things I can share that may just help a little to maybe ease ur mind.
I hope u r receiving BCNA's Inside story (mine is in the latest). It is filled with stories from women, like us, who are now living the uncertainty of metastatic bc. They too have doubts and fears but do not allow those feelings define who they are.
I am now living with mets like u. I was diagnosed with early bc in 1993 age 34. New primaries 2000. Metastatic bone & liver in 2008 aged 50.
I try not 2 think about time - how long?
Whateva time I have will not b enough, but, I intend 2 fill the time thats left fully.
I have my "bucket list". Some small & easily attainable, others long term, large and exciting.
I try to fill my time with work and time spent with family & friends. I am lucky that I have a friend who I can vent to when things get tough.
Take care
Marls