Hi Shorelle
You are not alone as we all go through these thoughts at one time or other. Some of us don't worry too much but still get anxious at the annual check-up time. It is a normal reaction and sometimes others around simply don't see the problem - so we come on here for info and support. Reading too much into what is said (as the writer is most often very absorbed in what they are experiencing) can be an issue for you. Please try not to worry about what might not happen to you. You are being treated by your medical team in the best possible way and you have to put your body in their hands. Your mind is a powerful thing as per the theme from "Time".
I hope this brings you some sense of peace and the ability to cope with your thoughts.
Hugs Summer
:-)