Oh Brenda I do so feel for you! I just went through s*** with the hospital-acquired antibiotic resistant bladder infection which I brought home with me as a souvenir along with the scars and drains and the rest. Now I am still struggling with decisions about chemo so I am very new to this madness, but I can see that it begins the minute after the diagnosis and probably never ends after that. I feel afraid to go into the garden because the super-strength antibiotics I am on make me dizzy and I am supposed to keep out of the sun. I know exactly what you mean about staying at the table. I am spending as much of today as possible on the sofa with the computer and the television on (but the sound off) in the background. Luckily am in the mountains, beautifully cool, don't need a fan!