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FLClover
4 years agoMember
@Nina75 I spent about 2-3 months waking up every morning convinced I’d just had a nightmare. Then realising it was true and wishing it had been a nightmare. And one of the hardest things about all this is exactly that: the realisation that we’re alone. No matter how much wonderful support you have, YOU are the one having to go through the rigmarole. When we enter the theatre, we go alone. The radiation room, alone. The chemo chair, alone. When I say alone, I mean we’re the ones all this is being done to. And that’s when we realise we really are alone in this world. Anything that happens to us in life, happens to US. Our friends and family can be there for support, but no one feels it like we do. I think this was one of the hardest parts of this breast ca diagnosis for me. It does take time to process, but once you do it makes a world of difference. Dealing with the psychological aspect of this diagnosis has helped me find myself, and now I don’t feel alone anymore. I could be by myself for days, and I wouldn’t feel alone. I also trust my body. I know I have my own back. Everyone else is a bonus.
Almost two years later, I’m pretty much over it and feeling a million times better. However, when I visit places that remind me of that time right after diagnosis, I still feel like crying because I’m reminded of how alone I felt, and that was the worst part. I guess healing really does take time and patience. You’ll get there ♥️.