A shared thought
Hi my pink sisters.
I've been lying awaking with thoughts going through my head and I thought I'd put them down and share them with you. I wrote a poem and called it WAITING. Here goes.
This was the day it all began.
I'll explain it all to you if I can.
I'm in a clinic awaiting my test.
A routine exam I have on my breasts.
I'm sitting in a chair. Waiting.
It's over now, on with life's daily grind.
I don't have any bad thoughts in my mind.
A letter arrives, I'm ill at ease.
I thought the mammogram would be a breeze.
I go to the hospital to have more tests.
I'm told not to worry, I'll do my best.
I'm sitting in a chair. Waiting.
Poked and prodded and scared right now.
Could this be happening I wonder. How?
Just days ago I felt care free.
Could this be happening? How could this be?
The results are in and I go back there.
Back to the hospital, I begin to despair.
And I sit in a chair. Waiting.
The worst news possible, my life turns around.
I cry out but there isn't a sound.
Plans are made but I'm spinning and turning.
I don't hear a thing.
By my ears are burning.
I fear the worst. It's black as night.
But my love is with me. He holds me tight.
Now it begins, this journey of mine.
More hospital visits, my new daily grind.
I sit in chairs. Waiting.
My body is cut, the invasion is gone.
I'm overwhelmed with relief, I can now carry on.
But now comes the hard times I'll need to endure.
With drugs I am hit. Is this a cure?
Long months go by, I'm in such pain.
I must go through it again and again.
Another infusion, just one more.
It's the hardest thing I've ever done before.
I sit in my chair. Waiting
I'm over the worst but with a hurdle to go.
Back to the hospital and this time I know
my body will be different than it was before.
I grieve and I ache to my very core.
But my love is with me, he holds me near.
He gives me strength, I should not fear.
I'm a survivor, I have come through.
It's like starting over, like starting anew.
The sun is shining, the clouds are abating.
I'm out of my chair, my life is waiting!
I hope you enjoy reading this. It gives me pleasure to share it.
Love to you all
Janey xxx
