2013 what a year!!

I remember a time when I had an extreme run of bad luck that cost me financially, from the first car I owned, which I rolled, while baby sitting, through to 4 accidents in cars later.  My confidence went down hill (SO DID MY BANK) and it almost seemed that people were backing into me, or driving into me,  they werent all my fault.  I had a run of bad relationships too, so I found my life seemed to go around in circles.  

Funnily, I have drawn from those years of experiences ( years of bad luck)  and I did learn from that time.  I really felt the world was against me and nothing went right for me , I was drawing  bad luck to me like flies to a bin.  It took me quite some time to bring myself out of that (from 19 to 33)  mind set of how unlucky I was.  For me I learnt eventually that only I could change how I was feeling, that there was always rotten stuff going on, it was only what I was chosing to focus on that changed the outcome.

I read a lot of books that many people said were rubbish, but the tools I have today are as follows:  dont look for trouble, it always out there.  Focus on the good stuff instead.  When you find youre sad, only give myself a couple of days to cry and feel low.  The longer I felt sorry for myself, the sorrier I became.  If still not ok, read another book.  (smiling).

With Cancer - I have learnt how great Counsellors are.

As my dear ol Dad says to me at 63 years of age: "I dont know whats going on love, all my friends are falling off the perch, and all our conversations are about our medical problems!"  He is a funny bugga !  

I liked my thought the other day.  We all look out our windows, but our emotions depend on our view.  (yep I made that up).

I totally understand how you feel, and of course I say all of this on a good day !  hahahaha (ask me again on a bad one).  hahahaha. Love Bel