@primek has it right. Ask or don't ask - the choice is absolutely yours - but do follow up on any concerns you may have. Honestly, whether you know or not, it will make no difference to the outcome although of course we all hope that if we ask the question, we will get an answer that makes us happy. It is what it is but remember, you could have never had cancer and died sooner of something else altogether. We all look for guarantees but unfortunately there are none, only statistics. It's a tough gig @TOmmy but it's the show you're the star of. If you need to, please consider counselling - many of us have reached a point at some stage in our treatment where we need to speak to a psychologist/counsellor. Take care and best wishes.