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I am new to this site and like a few others am learning my way around it. Was diagnosed June 2009 but living in rural area slowed down a lot of things. therefore by time I actually got 2 C oncologist and surgeon my tumor had grow rapidly past operative size. So i had 4 mths chemo 2 shrink tumor B 4 full left masectomy last October. Then another delay, radiation was not organised until I nagged 4 it and finally commenced 5 weeks of that having 2 travel 2 Adelaide 4 treatment. Then another 4mts of chemo. I had 23 lymph nodes removed. No cancer cells found in them ...Phew. but find it still numb, uncomfortable, slightly restrictive at most times. I did the encore program and still do my excercises. I think this will B ongoing 4eva. I am on Tamoxin 4 next 5yrs. I have my ups and sowns. I don't feel much like a women any more and grieve for my breast. At first it didn't worry me. My hubby was at the time very supportive. Now our relationship is falling apart. So I now feel like my whole world has crashed. Has anyone else out there had this happen.