What they don't tell you!

I had to stop reading your blog to scroll back up to the top of the page to see if Id written this piece myself.  I laughed and at the end I breathed  a "knowing" sigh, no they dont tell us everything.  I am 47 too, and experiencing a lot of what you are saying.  I am aware I have way too much time on my hands, but well, Im not what I used to be and thats starting to show up too.  Just like youve said, we have all changed.  I am finding I am going through a thousand things at the moment like you are, and have altered how I thought in the beginning.  I am being careful to not get over whelmed, but its hard when I feel like I have had my magic carpet pulled out from under me, and now been put on tthe "Fast Plane of Reality" instead.  I am only just starting to absorb the reality to be honest, and was in a bubble for the first 6 months which suited me nicely.  I wasnt offended by a word you said, and I always assume that this website is for us, and for the people who are directly involved with Breast Cancer.  I hope no-one does judge us by our "Rants" because I have had many.  But I have also been picked up each time Ive had doubts, I have had a laugh when I think I am the only one feeling this way and clearly Im not, and if I cry, I dont feel guilty.  Yep, I have the "Prisoner" hairstyle, I too am in instant Menopause, I am regularly getting cranky and well, lets face it, we could all write a book couldnt we!  But I send a big hug, and now, Im off for my afternoon sleep and a good book to read.  xx Bel