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angiebelle's avatar
13 years ago

Vent!!

Oh crap I was going along ok but just saw the Oncologist today and I start chemo in a few days....so Christmas will be a write off. I'm having a big poor me moment, and even that is making me frustrated! I just cancelled Christmas with my family,(my sister text and said it won't be the same without me!!), can't see the point in having my girls with me if I'm going to be no good to them then and a friend (who has been non existent since I told her my cancer news) was unfortunate to just text me asking how I am and I just flew off the handle at her. I feel so pissed off at this cancer crap!!! I honestly feel like hiding in a hole just incase anyone comes into my vicinity and I snap at them. Well I guess it's healthy to feel angry and not deny my feelings but I'm exhausted...and terrified of starting chemo. So to summarise....positive Angie has temporarily left the building!

13 Replies

  • Hi Angie

    Hope you are feeling a little better today and the chemo isn't treating you too badly!  As the other girls said....vent away!  That's what we are all here for, to listen!

    It is a crappy time of year to be dealing with a crappy disease and about bloody time they found a cure for it!!!! (or at least a treatment that doesn't make you feel so sick!)

    I truly hope you feel ok on Christmas Day and can spend time with your little girls and your family.  Take it easy and let the people around you help out.  It's your turn to be the patient (and I know that is hard) so take advantage of it.  You don't have to do everything and feeling out of control is all part and parcel of the treatment, im afraid! Look after yourself and make sure that you get some rest.

    Keep smiling,

    Louise xx

  • Hi Angie

    Firstly I'd like to say you are entitled to vent and be pissed off at everything and everyone, but depending on what chemo you are having and you as an individual you might be surprised at how well you feel following chemo. I didn't find chemo debilitating at all, by the third round I was ridiculously tired and never really felt'like me', but the first couple were fine. Good luck with it all

    Janice

  • Hi Angie

    Firstly I'd like to say you are entitled to vent and be pissed off at everything and everyone, but depending on what chemo you are having and you as an individual you might be surprised at how well you feel following chemo. I didn't find chemo debilitating at all, by the third round I was ridiculously tired and never really felt'like me', but the first couple were fine. Good luck with it all

    Janice

  • Angie, can't you still have Christmas with a bit more help from the others? Although I did feel off during chemo it didn't stop me socialising (gently) and you'll feel so much better surrounded by family than wallowing alone... Jenn
  • Angie, can't you still have Christmas with a bit more help from the others? Although I did feel off during chemo it didn't stop me socialising (gently) and you'll feel so much better surrounded by family than wallowing alone... Jenn
  • Hi Angiebelle I didn't find chemo that debilitating and I wouldn't cancel Christmas over it just yet! I worked full-time throughout and still managed to have a social life. Yes, some days were crap and I couldn't get off the couch or out of bed but not that many in the scheme of things. Don't let BC ruin your Christmas - still plan to enjoy but make room to rest too. Best of luck, Tammy x
  • Hi Angiebelle I didn't find chemo that debilitating and I wouldn't cancel Christmas over it just yet! I worked full-time throughout and still managed to have a social life. Yes, some days were crap and I couldn't get off the couch or out of bed but not that many in the scheme of things. Don't let BC ruin your Christmas - still plan to enjoy but make room to rest too. Best of luck, Tammy x