Vent!!

Oh crap I was going along ok but just saw the Oncologist today and I start chemo in a few days....so Christmas will be a write off. I'm having a big poor me moment, and even that is making me frustrated! I just cancelled Christmas with my family,(my sister text and said it won't be the same without me!!), can't see the point in having my girls with me if I'm going to be no good to them then and a friend (who has been non existent since I told her my cancer news) was unfortunate to just text me asking how I am and I just flew off the handle at her. I feel so pissed off at this cancer crap!!! I honestly feel like hiding in a hole just incase anyone comes into my vicinity and I snap at them. Well I guess it's healthy to feel angry and not deny my feelings but I'm exhausted...and terrified of starting chemo. So to summarise....positive Angie has temporarily left the building!