Use of Femara

Hey Ness My Onco has taken me off Femara for 6 weeks and then i am to go back on it for 6 weeks before seeing him again to  as he puts it negotiate.To be honest I can't blame Femara for my terrible aches and pains now, I can't blame them for my hot flushes as I was suffering from them before diagnosed with BC and that was why I was taking HRT which worked beautifully but now I take Lyrica which keeps the hot flushes under control so I can't really blame Femara for them.  I am still not able to sleep at night so that obviously was not the Femara.So i am going back in to the onco room with not much of a fight up my sleeve so guess I will be going back on Femara...............I guess one thing I can try and blame Femara for is my libido but then on the other hand could it be that I don't like my body anymore so can't see how anybody else could - I am overweigh a lot worse since my BC diagnosis, I have one very dicky boob that is still suffereing issues and I have a husband who is obviously a boob man, I still get very tired and mood changes occur so...... mmmmm would that have happened because of the BC diagnosis, surgery, chemo, loss of hair, added weight, periods of mild depression, a boob that isn't a boob anymore and more like an alien stuck to me that I can't get rid of unless I take drastic measures.  Only good thing to come out of this whole situation is I am cancer free. Soooo I don't think I can blame my libido on Femara but more on BC diagnosis and what that does to your body image and your mind.That is about as honest as I can get when it comes to Femara.  I love to hate it with a vengence but what choices do we have.  If I say I don't want to go back on it and in two years down the track BC comes back and bites me in the bum OR I go back on Femara and continue to suffer various symptoms that I can try and blame on Femara and then BC comes back to bite me in the bum - who or what can I blame nobody really knows.  BUT if I have done everything in my power to stop this horrid disgusting and whatever other name you want to give this cancer then i feel I have done the best that I can do and the rest is up to my body and maybe just bloody good luck who knows, not me.Not sure if that helps you at all but I have said what i feel about another horrid drug with horrid side effects.  I wish I could blame every single ailment I have on bloody Femara but I can't.  So if it is going to help me be here to see children and their children grown up and have their own lives then bring it on I say.You are a long time dead.Lots of love always, Mich xoxoxoxo