Treatment is over. Where did 'normal me' go?

hi Nadine, 

I am so sorry to read your story... my story is about to begin. I have only just been on this site for a few weeks and I have to say,,, Im worried and scared for what is about to happen... and not knowing what is going to happen either. 

It has been 4 weeks since my first ever mammogram and since then every week has had bad news..stage 2 invasive Carcinoma 3cm in Left breast... Stallate Lesions and would never had found it if i had not gone along for the mamm... 

I am having surgery in about 5 weeks but where it goes after that who knows... Radiotherapy, Chemo??? and what ever else I have to endure. The not knowing is the hardest bit. 

In the next 2 weeks I have tests to do.. bone scan, CT chest, Pelvis and abdo. then see a Plastics Surgeon to do the expander and then what ever treatment I then have to have. I wanted to be back at work on the 15th August but that is now not going to happen either as i cant drive for 6 weeks and so that means i cant get around to get to work. I am a Clinical Facilitator for Nursing Students and work in various hospitals. 

I will try to go back in Sept ... as I am the same as you.. dont work dont get paid..and I have no sick or holidays being contract. 

I am so worried about the after effects of what Im about to go through and it seems to be consistent with most women on here... I know the difference between depression and just being down ... 

I truely hope you can get to the bottom of your side effects and find out soon.. My thoughts are with you and my heart goes out to you.