Hi Jodie,
As I read your post, I am really feeling for you. You will be ok. I remember well my first infusion, I felt as you are feellng....I walked in holding my hubbys hand, I think I almost cut off his circulation. My philosopy was, expect the worst, and just see what happens. Well, what happened was, I had the FEC infusion, I felt fine, and even went out for lunch afterwards. The dex kept me wired for a couple of days, no nausea. I had prepared in advance my "chemo kit". It had everything known to man that I thought I might need. To my surprise I did not need most of the goodies in it. I took my nausea meds as directed, I did drink lots of ginger beer, and looked after my mouth. I was really surprised that it was not as bad as I had expeced. 6 days after my first chemo, I flew to Melbourne for the tennis. I will be thinking of you tomorrow, and hope it all goes well for you.
Linda. xx.