Hi @jewel-ee. I was a lurker for a long time too. Sorry that you find yourself here, but having said that, it's an incredibly supportive place and a great resource as I'm sure you realise from your lurking!
I'm just reached your 'June', today was my first day free of the 21 day cycle since early January. Like everyone says, it goes quicker than you think it will, and once you get started, the fear of the unknown recedes and you get used to the rhythm.
You know your chemo is called TC? Do a search here with that term & you'll find lots of info.
I haven't shed a tear over my hair loss, but I struggled with the everyone knows thing. I still don't like it but like most things you get used to it. Mind you, the other day a man stared so long and hard at me as I walked past him that I said "stop staring". Pig. I have found men far worse at this than women. Women know how to flick the eyes away after the extra half second of looking.
Anyway, don't hesitate to use this marvellous forum. Be kind to yourself and don't try to do too much. Take care and good luck on Friday. Let us know how you get on. K xox