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rowdy
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10 years ago

Time

If I had a time machine to go back in time and erase the last 12-14 months.

Everytime I think things are on the improve I get knocked down again. Last week my father passed away, he wasn't sick he had a massive stroke. This brings back those feelings of how we don't know what tomorrow will bring. I have gotten though his funeral and trying to accept his passing and now I'm as sick as a dog. My throat is sore and I can't talk, my friends and family think this is funny because I do talk alot. I feel like things are never going to get back to normal. I think I have had my share of crap to last me a lifetime. Sorry this is negative just a really bad day and feeling low.

Here is tomorrow and a better day I hope x

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  • Hi Maureen thank you for your kind thoughts, you are right time does help. You are very lucky you have your mum still with you, 92 is amazing, I work with older people and they have a different way at looking at life as they have seeen so much.

    I will always have the memories and none of us know when it is our time, so we do need to enjoy every day and I do try, just sometimes it gathers in to a big pile of crap. Hope you are well take care

  • Hi Rowdy. I too am very sorry to hear this very sad news.  You just need to allow yourself to grieve and not expect the pain to go away.  I lost my Dad 26 years ago and I still miss him.  The old saying that time will heal is true in that you do learn to live and enjoy living again because you have your wonderful memories of your Dad.  I have my lovely Mum living with me now and she will be 92 in a few months. We talk about Dad like he is just out of the house sometimes and have lots of laughs because he was a very funny guy.  We still toast his birthday and remember him with the family at other important occasions.  These memories will always be with me. 

    Take care. Maureen

  • Hi Rowdy Just wanted to say I'm so sorry about your Dad. I think the other ladies are so right when they say be kind to yourself during this time. It is important to let yourself grieve for your Dad. Hope that some better times are around the corner for you. Take care. Deanne xxx
  • Hi Rosanna Just wanted to say I love your comparison of life to a buffet table - just pick and choose what you like and what is good for you! That is a lesson I too have learnt from BC. Hope you are going well. Deanne xxx
  • Oh dear Rowdy

    I can feel it.  It's been knocked down again from the mood.  

    It's sad and sorry you lost your Dad.  I lost my Dad more than 10 years.  But every time when I think of him, it brings me tears.  However, I do dream of him, have you?  I dream of him, he is way more happier than before.  He sent me a lot of smile.  He is light and enjoy.

    We've came through a lot.  We shouldn't sit there and enjoy sadness.  Your Dad and my Dad don't like seeing us in this way.

    I usually gave myself a deep breathe and continue to live.  I felt life sometimes was so heavy.  This battle let me rethink about life and the way that I processed it.  I put myself into a buffet table, just pick those that I like, avoid and even not touching for those could cause me sick.  I always remember this theory to my daily living.

    Rowdy, you came through a big chapter in your life already, please keep on and write something good and enjoyable stuff to the following chapters.  By the time I wrote to you, I am encouraging myself as well.

    Take care.

    Rosanna

  • Good mornng ladies thank you for youe kind words. Today is another day and I will try and move on 

  • Hi Rowdy, I'm so very sorry to hear about your Dad. Let's take the cancer out of the equation for a moment. You're grieving and in shock at the passing of your Dad. Is it any wonder you are feeling so low and are now unwell. This is a huge shock to your system. Be kind to yourself. 

    As far as having had more than your fair share, well unfortunately that's how life seems to go. I'm sure you will know others who seem to get more than their share of hurt and trauma. I don't understand why this is,  it's not fair but you will get through this. Sometimes it's hard not to feel as though you are being kicked whilst you are down by the universe.  There's no doubt that this is going to be a difficult time for you and as I say, you need to be kind to yourself. Allow yourself to feel the emotions and let them out, even if it is just by writing blogs here.  

    Take care. Karen xox

  • Hello Rowdy,I would love to give you a big hug and tell you that you will get through this.:):) You are probably a bit run down at this moment,hence the sore throat.Give yourself time Rowdy,two steps forward ,one step back.I feel it takes quite a LONG time to get anywhere near back to normal.I am 16 months past my LAST chemo,and I still have many,many days( today was one) when I still feel as though I am not ever going to get back on top of things!And I have not lost a parent!! Baby steps Rowdy,you WILL be ok.Cheers xoxRobyn
  • Hello Rowdy,

    I am very sorry to hear about your father's passing. You are within your right to be feeling negative as it hasn't been easy.

    Do take care and hope that things in general will get better .

    love Finita xxxxxxxxxxxxx