Hello Leila.
Im at a similar stage to you. I've jus been diagnosed and nothing else has happened yet. I've just ordered my kit and hopefully it will come soon.
Im still having a tear every day too, and don't know who I should tell and who I shouldn't tell.
i have all these crazy thoughts about how things are going to be when..... And then have to change my thoughts!
Im finding it hard to sleep as well and and still working full time. Everyone tells me how strong I am but I sure as hell don't feel like it at the moment.
Good luck with it all, :)