Gee you've had some big challenges with your treatment and very sorry about your friend. Despite all that you continue to push to see the beauty and sunshine in everyday life, things that maybe we don't notice or appreciate when all's well. Keep it up...speaking of strong women, did you see Turia Pitt, the woman severely burnt doing an ultra marathon, recently completed an iron man comp? Your fight, focus and determination remind me of her. Doesn't mean you're not allowed to cry or anything. Hope that makes sense....wishing you a whole lot of sunny days, beautiful moments and smoother sailing with the rest of your treatment.