The last illusion of control dissolves

Sweetheart , 

you made me cry ! I don't cry easily and I'm the strong one in the family . Lovely wishes from all the wonderful ladies on this website and they mean it. It's only temporarily , gather yourself and go for whatever you want to do - please yourself. I've had breast cancer twice now and I'm still here , don't give up. I got married at 32 and had my first child at 33, there's always time for future relashionships, friends and who knows what around the corner . Trite but true.  Do you art and have fun . Reading your blog I thought you had a way with words - first thought was your a writer . Try that - write a diary of every day . Do small pleasures each day, give yourself a treat even if it's just a walk outside in the park. Your entitled to grieve and yell at the unfairness of it all , for the life you thought you'd have , not the cancer and all the setbacks. Please , give yourself permission to cry and go out and soar! All the happiness in the world to you ?????? Bep xx