Yes it is bloody hard Kathy. But you know I think what we have to accept is we are not in control of this journey nor our emotional response. Once I accepted that and have just rolled with it...I am much less stressed. I have stopped making tight lined plans and just going with "when i have finished treatment. .. I will see how I feel when I get there and then decide what and when I will do things". It has been a whole lot more exhausting than I could have believed. I am just glad I was physically fit at the start. Kath.