Tears & Butterflies in the Stomach since New Primary Diagnosis
Since unexpectedly being diagnosed with a new primary cancer in my other breast 2 weeks ago my mind & body seem to have gone into overdrive with stress & worry.
Behind closed doors I'm really struggling to keep my emotions in check this time around - so teary & the butterflies in my stomach are just constant. This is so unlike me - last year with my first diagnosis yes I was worried but somehow I was able to just go with it & do what needed to be done & was lucky enough to only require surgery & radiation & be given an excellent prognosis.
The new primary cancer in the other breast at this stage looks to be the same size & type as the previous one & my specialist seems to think treatment would be surgery & radiation again too.
So I don't get why I feel so overwhelmed this time?
Maybe it's because this was so unexpected or that I feel betrayed by my other breast because it's never been a cause for concern?
Maybe it's because I now feel silly for being so confident I had beaten it first time around & had just recently proudly tossed out all my previous paperwork, lab results & post surgery bras!
It's so frustrating to feel this way.
Note to self - stop Googling for answers this time around too!
Has anyone else experienced a stronger emotional reaction to a new primary breast cancer diagnosis compared to 1st time around?