Tamoxifen version 4 and a fantastic week
Like a bad movie that should never have had a sequel let alone 3, here goes round 4.
i've had another little Tamoxiholiday after getting into quite a serious funk a couple of weeks ago. This time I have ditched everything, the drugs, the drugs to counteract the side effects of the drugs, all the vitamins and supplements as well. I didn't really think they were doing anything anyway after 10 months of taking them.
Each time I go off it, the side effects give a little and take a bit longer to kick back in.
This time after two weeks, they ALL GAVE UP.
I have had the best week ever since D Day. That's right, no hot flushes for a week. No foggy brain. A week of no aches and pains, no creaking clicking joints, no funky mood swings, no hot doona dance (and that was not in a good way either) :smile: Sleep, glorious, unbroken sleep and, even a bit of mojo coming back. :wink:
I went for a decent trail ride up through the mountains on my horse and was not crippled the next day. The only thing that didn't return quite as well as it has been previously is my short term memory, which is somewhat disturbing but it's not terribly bad.
I've been on a bit of a high actually. So, so good to feel normal again. Kind of like a good drug you want more of :blush: So I am really dragging my feet on popping that pill again.
The best thing is that I have been able to do some serious, clear headed thinking and soul searching. I have decided this will be the last time. If I can't get it under control there won't be a version 5. I am content with this decision and am not prepared to spend 10 yrs feeling like a moody, teary, achy, no mojo, foggy space cadet for an extra 6% maybe. If it comes back will I blame myself? I have heard and read of too many recurrences even after doing all the right things for years so I don't think so. I would never have known either way. Quite frankly given the amount of spread that was already there I think I'm going to be pretty lucky if it doesn't reappear even with the drugs. Let's hope the chemo did it's job. That's not meant to sound negative of morbid just realistic.
My onc has handed the reins over to me and I am to call him if I want to try any of the other drugs. Apart from that "see you in 6 months". I think he's given up LOL
Anyhoo all that being said I really do want to do everything that has been recommended. I am hoping going into it feeling this good in mind and body, and armed with some tips and ammo from my new found friend in the UK , it will get sorted.
I am off to have a glass of wine. (ok, it's the third one) So cheers to giving version 4 an absolute red hot crack and slapping this bitch into submission.
Thanks you for listening once again lovelies.
xoxoxoxo
Theme song for the day................White Snake.................Here I go again.
i've had another little Tamoxiholiday after getting into quite a serious funk a couple of weeks ago. This time I have ditched everything, the drugs, the drugs to counteract the side effects of the drugs, all the vitamins and supplements as well. I didn't really think they were doing anything anyway after 10 months of taking them.
Each time I go off it, the side effects give a little and take a bit longer to kick back in.
This time after two weeks, they ALL GAVE UP.
I have had the best week ever since D Day. That's right, no hot flushes for a week. No foggy brain. A week of no aches and pains, no creaking clicking joints, no funky mood swings, no hot doona dance (and that was not in a good way either) :smile: Sleep, glorious, unbroken sleep and, even a bit of mojo coming back. :wink:
I went for a decent trail ride up through the mountains on my horse and was not crippled the next day. The only thing that didn't return quite as well as it has been previously is my short term memory, which is somewhat disturbing but it's not terribly bad.
I've been on a bit of a high actually. So, so good to feel normal again. Kind of like a good drug you want more of :blush: So I am really dragging my feet on popping that pill again.
The best thing is that I have been able to do some serious, clear headed thinking and soul searching. I have decided this will be the last time. If I can't get it under control there won't be a version 5. I am content with this decision and am not prepared to spend 10 yrs feeling like a moody, teary, achy, no mojo, foggy space cadet for an extra 6% maybe. If it comes back will I blame myself? I have heard and read of too many recurrences even after doing all the right things for years so I don't think so. I would never have known either way. Quite frankly given the amount of spread that was already there I think I'm going to be pretty lucky if it doesn't reappear even with the drugs. Let's hope the chemo did it's job. That's not meant to sound negative of morbid just realistic.
My onc has handed the reins over to me and I am to call him if I want to try any of the other drugs. Apart from that "see you in 6 months". I think he's given up LOL
Anyhoo all that being said I really do want to do everything that has been recommended. I am hoping going into it feeling this good in mind and body, and armed with some tips and ammo from my new found friend in the UK , it will get sorted.
I am off to have a glass of wine. (ok, it's the third one) So cheers to giving version 4 an absolute red hot crack and slapping this bitch into submission.
Thanks you for listening once again lovelies.
xoxoxoxo
Theme song for the day................White Snake.................Here I go again.
