It's huge Jacqui. I cried all the time...just be doing something...or try to do something and the tears would just come flooding out. I struggled with everyday things...planning particularly, and had frightful sleep....just reading reading reading everything about breast cancer. I stopped work...as I am a counselor and was in no fit state to do it. I found having a buddy with me helped and organiding stuff like...buying some scarves, finding out about wigs, checking out eyebrow makeup all helped me have some control back. Won't be long and you'll know what's next. Take care. Kath x