Struggling with my mood

It's funny how people tell you how good you are looking - absolutely well intentioned, to reassure you you don't look sick (or like to die!!) but I always found it hard to answer so just thanked them. My big hurdle was that the me at the end of it would be broken, fundamentally changed and diminished. It took a good counsellor for a short time and my own thinking for a longer time to work out what was truly valuable to me and be confident in retaining that. I have just had a problem with an eye operation and that old feeling flooded back. Good counsel lasts and I can handle this too, particularly as there is a good chance of a good outcome. But yes, there's the treatment for the body and then there's the treatment for the mind. I was lucky and carried very little emotional hardship or difficulty into cancer, but I firmly believe that any life threatening illness can and probably will churn up all the emotional baggage one has. Take care.