@kmakm I wondered where you were this morning. I wish I could magic myself to Melbourne and give you a hug - probably not really a hug 'cos I'm not a huggy person. You WILL get through this, one step at a time. If you look at 7 years, you'll go crazy. Being as miserable as a bandicoot seems to be the norm, sometimes. I know there's a lot of bandicoots around my house. And yes, you're almost at the end of chemo but not the end of treatment so it's understandable that you will feel overwhelmed at times. Listen to me! Some expert! If your counsellor's good, stay with him/her - if not, try to find someone else.
Thinking of you.