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Hi Tracy,  Deanne is right.  You are more fearful of telling your mum because deep down you know you are both going to be very emotional.    I couldn't tell my mum because she is in a nursing home with dementia but I know I felt more fearful of telling my dad than anyone else  for the same reason.  I am older than you and worried that maybe I shouldn't  bother my elder dad with all of this but he was very pleased that I did and he called me every day while I was in hospital.  It's not the same, though as a mother daughter relationship in that men don't have the need to talk about things over and over again to process their feelings which is where my friends come into the picture.

 I too found it easier to talk to friends and colleagues who all think I am this incredibly strong person (if they only knew the truth)  but I knew there was going to be no way I'd be able to hold back the tears when I broke the news to my dad.  I was right!  But it didn't matter - it was honest and real and it was all ok.

As Deanne said, once you tell your mum I am sure too that it will get easier for you.

All the very best with your Specialist appointment today.

Best wishes

Joy xx