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shazza73
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14 years ago

scared stiff

Hi to everyone.Im new to this site but find great relief in reading the stories of so many women this affects.My story is I had a sore breast so I went to the doctors who immediatly felt a lump. Then 2 days after I had a mammogram,ultrasound and biopsy.Then 2 days before my 39th I was told I had grade 2 invasive breast cancer.I have since had a mastectomy and 4 nodes out but he said there were some that were inflamed.So its been 11 days since and I go tomorrow for the results so fingers crossed its not any worse.I have 4 kids 20,18,5 & 2.Im just so scared that im not going to see my kids grow up..I also feel as tho im losing weight but dont no if im just imaging it since finding out.i never thought in a million yrs this would happen as noone in my family has had cancer.this has taught me so many things.

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  • serenity11's avatar
    serenity11
    Member
    14 years ago

    Hi Shazza.  I can only add my thoughts to those above.  It is a scary time and your will be overwhelmed for a while as everything will move so quickly.  You are not alone.

    From everything I've read and from my own experience, no chemo is the same. If you have questions ask them, dont be afraid no question is stupid and most have an answer.  The pink chicks on this site are a wonderful source of support, helpful advice and answers.

    My tip is to be gentle on yourself.  Accept the love and help that your family and friends will surround you with. And remember there is light at the end of the tunnel, you are strong, you will be well!

    Take care

  • DansBoobs's avatar
    DansBoobs
    Member
    14 years ago
    Hi Shazza, It sure is a crazy roller coaster ride we are on. I was diagnosed on the 9th May with a grade 3, 3cm invasive ductal tumour. ER PR and HER2 +ve. Sentinel node was clear so no further nodes were removed. I had 3 surgeries, lumpectomy and sentinel node biopsy, re excision of margins and then a port a Cath insertion. Then I started chemo last Thursday. I am also a cancer nurse so I know all of the awful horror stories. I was exactly the same in the beginning. So frightened and worried for my 3 girls. But since then I have realised that although it is a long hard road we are on, we come out better people at the end. Early breast cancer is treatable and curable and I have no intention of dying from this disease. It will get better, the first couple of weeks are the worst. Big hugs for you sweetheart. Take it easy. xx Dan xx
  • chipmunk's avatar
    chipmunk
    Member
    14 years ago

    Hi Shazza73

    Well, look on the bright side. Atleast they are not taking any chances. Better to have them out.

    Then they can do all the treatments necessary, to get rid of it, once and for all. :)

    You will fight this, just like us all. One day at a time.

    take care my lovely , Julie XX

  • Roby's avatar
    Roby
    Member
    14 years ago
    Hi Shazza I too am waiting for more surgery and test, I have lost a fair bit of weight from the stress but am now forcing myself to eat small amounts every couple of hours and have brought all the fattening things I have for years been telling myself I do not need. Full fat milk chocolate and butter on my toast. They say it will be better when we know where we are going but boy the waiting is just about doing me in never mind the BC. All the best know that you are not alone. Roby
  • shazza73's avatar
    shazza73
    Member
    14 years ago

    Well thanks for your comments it means so much.I got my results not the best all 4 nodes were involved so now its back to hospital to get the remaining ones out.I didnt take the news to well and made myself sick with worry but now I no ive got to fight this.

  • Di_BCNA's avatar
    Di_BCNA
    Member
    14 years ago

    Hi Shazza -- just wanted to say welcome, and good luck with your tests.  Let us know how you go.

    Di

  • justtrina's avatar
    justtrina
    Member
    14 years ago

    Hi Shazza... unfortunately must of us have been in the same or similar position as you are now. I was diagnosed about the 5 April.. and have now had 2 Chemo sessions(many more to go)  and am on my way to recovery. I have an 8 year old son... and like you  my first thoughts were about being there for him. The best bit is that you will be.... early BC is treatable and survivable... Regarding loosing weight - I lost 6 kg when I was first diagnosed from stress. I'm now trying to maintain my weight and at times it's hard. Unfortunately there are many test that the Dr will put you through but you have to remember that they are covering all bases... ask questions and take someone with you.  As Annie said above.. it all settles down when you know your treatment plan.. it takes time.

    take care and know that I'm thinking and feeling for you

    Trina

  • justtrina's avatar
    justtrina
    Member
    14 years ago

    Hi Shazza... unfortunately must of us have been in the same or similar position as you are now. I was diagnosed about the 5 April.. and have now had 2 Chemo sessions(many more to go)  and am on my way to recovery. I have an 8 year old son... and like you  my first thoughts were about being there for him. The best bit is that you will be.... early BC is treatable and survivable... Regarding loosing weight - I lost 6 kg when I was first diagnosed from stress. I'm now trying to maintain my weight and at times it's hard. Unfortunately there are many test that the Dr will put you through but you have to remember that they are covering all bases... ask questions and take someone with you.  As Annie said above.. it all settles down when you know your treatment plan.. it takes time.

    take care and know that I'm thinking and feeling for you

    Trina

  • annie2's avatar
    annie2
    Member
    14 years ago
    Hi shazza. I dont think it would be normal not to feel scared.I was 40 when i got diagnosed i was grade 3 and 6 lymph nodes involved.That was 18 months ago.Ive done all the treatment it was hard but i managed and so did my kids. The start of this is scarey and waiting for results is the worst part of this shitty process.Once you know what you are facing and your treatment plan it doesnt seem so daunting. goodluck with it all x