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Scan day freaking sucks......yet again. Probable curse words included.
With only minor trepidation and my shit mostly together I went to clinic today to get my results. I stopped to give a co worker that had just been diagnosed (MOFO BC) a hug and a shoulder to cry on for a bit while we were waiting. I heard my name called and promised her she would get through and I would be happy to help if I could in any way. She thanked me with that smile you put on when you are trying so hard not to burst into tears and your heart is aching as I waltzed on in to the doctors office.
Well the whole thing went sideways and turned into me leaving work in a shaky, teary eyed mess. My goodness this thing still rocks you when least expect it.
Here we go again with another fucking ambiguous result about the mystical eliptical thingamajjigy that has taken up residence in the rogue boob. Said thingy has decided to grow 2mm in 6 months. BIRAIDS score now moved up from a 3 to a 4 and hey lets poke a needle in it this time. This presents a problem. Considering the MRI is still the only machine that can see thingy (again it can't be felt by anyone either) and it's positioning, it is probable that a biopsy can't be done in the MRI machine. Still waiting on an answer for that one.
So do we just poke around in there and try to hit it?? Cut it out or off just for the heck of it?
No body is prepared to say it is anything sinister nor are they prepared to say it's not.
Seriously, can someone please tell me how, for the love of god, you can have 4 MRI's, 4 mammograms and 6 u/sounds in a period of 12 months and still not know what this is or isn't.
So as it sits, back to headlining the MDT on Thursday to get input from group of guru's as quote "my breast don't scan normally". Another targetted u/s on Friday. And wait for an answer on whether the biopsy can be done by MRI.
Waiting waiting waiting yet again. Fuckity fuck fuck. I am sick of this roller coaster. I want to get off and my money back.
Mental status right now = somewhere between zoned out numbness and seriously pissed off.
Strongly considering ostrich tactics at the moment.
Thanks for listening. :/
Well the whole thing went sideways and turned into me leaving work in a shaky, teary eyed mess. My goodness this thing still rocks you when least expect it.
Here we go again with another fucking ambiguous result about the mystical eliptical thingamajjigy that has taken up residence in the rogue boob. Said thingy has decided to grow 2mm in 6 months. BIRAIDS score now moved up from a 3 to a 4 and hey lets poke a needle in it this time. This presents a problem. Considering the MRI is still the only machine that can see thingy (again it can't be felt by anyone either) and it's positioning, it is probable that a biopsy can't be done in the MRI machine. Still waiting on an answer for that one.
So do we just poke around in there and try to hit it?? Cut it out or off just for the heck of it?
No body is prepared to say it is anything sinister nor are they prepared to say it's not.
Seriously, can someone please tell me how, for the love of god, you can have 4 MRI's, 4 mammograms and 6 u/sounds in a period of 12 months and still not know what this is or isn't.
So as it sits, back to headlining the MDT on Thursday to get input from group of guru's as quote "my breast don't scan normally". Another targetted u/s on Friday. And wait for an answer on whether the biopsy can be done by MRI.
Waiting waiting waiting yet again. Fuckity fuck fuck. I am sick of this roller coaster. I want to get off and my money back.
Mental status right now = somewhere between zoned out numbness and seriously pissed off.
Strongly considering ostrich tactics at the moment.
Thanks for listening. :/
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- Shudder shudder at the sore boob! Memories of own investigation prior to diagnosis.
Not about me this is about you and here's hoping they have it sorted and the healing can commence.
Sending you a virtual hug xx - @kezmusc, been thinking about you. You have really had a hard time, your poor booby. I hope the results are good <3
- Cross fingers for something nice (not remotely nasty may do) in your Christmas stocking!
- Howdy all,
Today was bx day which turned into a three hour marathon.
She was relatively sure she had it and said whe wasn't surprised the others couldn't locate the thing by u/s. On there it's masquerading as the tail end of seroma. Right where the end of the tumour was.
She's resonably sure she got it but decided to take 6 samples (surely there can't be much of it left after that) from around it just to be sure, put in a clip and follow that with a mammogram. Because you need your severely poked and skewered boob to be squished afterwards right? Top that off with me nearly fainting and it was a fun day all round :neutral:
Anyhoo, feeling somewhat like a pin cushion at the moment.
Now the wait until xmas eve for the results. hmmmmm. Hopefully Santa has a good result for me.
Hugs to all
xoxoxo - @Romla,
Thank you lovely. I queried about having the 3D mammo on top of everything else but BS says no point as MRI is still far superior to that apparently. Yet again, not visible after umpteen mammos and u/sounds over the last 18 mths. Story of my life. I'm treading water like heck don't worry. xoxox - @kezmusc, I just read your post. sending you all the healing wishes and hugs xx
- Omg only just seen this as been awol with other matters for sometime. Firstly ,thinking of you @kezmusc and hoping all goes well.One step at a time with the occasional tread water to gather your breath and even a step back if necessary but keep climbing that hill. Big hugs.
PS Were your U/s 3D as gather they give a much better read ? - @kezmusc, sending lots of love your way and I will have everything crossed for good results for you <3
- @Anne65 What a way to cross the finish line of an endurance trial! So happy for you. Now you can look forward to a relaxed and enjoyable Christmas. 😘
- @Anne65 So happy for you! K xox :* <3
