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Scan day freaking sucks......yet again. Probable curse words included.
With only minor trepidation and my shit mostly together I went to clinic today to get my results. I stopped to give a co worker that had just been diagnosed (MOFO BC) a hug and a shoulder to cry on for a bit while we were waiting. I heard my name called and promised her she would get through and I would be happy to help if I could in any way. She thanked me with that smile you put on when you are trying so hard not to burst into tears and your heart is aching as I waltzed on in to the doctors office.
Well the whole thing went sideways and turned into me leaving work in a shaky, teary eyed mess. My goodness this thing still rocks you when least expect it.
Here we go again with another fucking ambiguous result about the mystical eliptical thingamajjigy that has taken up residence in the rogue boob. Said thingy has decided to grow 2mm in 6 months. BIRAIDS score now moved up from a 3 to a 4 and hey lets poke a needle in it this time. This presents a problem. Considering the MRI is still the only machine that can see thingy (again it can't be felt by anyone either) and it's positioning, it is probable that a biopsy can't be done in the MRI machine. Still waiting on an answer for that one.
So do we just poke around in there and try to hit it?? Cut it out or off just for the heck of it?
No body is prepared to say it is anything sinister nor are they prepared to say it's not.
Seriously, can someone please tell me how, for the love of god, you can have 4 MRI's, 4 mammograms and 6 u/sounds in a period of 12 months and still not know what this is or isn't.
So as it sits, back to headlining the MDT on Thursday to get input from group of guru's as quote "my breast don't scan normally". Another targetted u/s on Friday. And wait for an answer on whether the biopsy can be done by MRI.
Waiting waiting waiting yet again. Fuckity fuck fuck. I am sick of this roller coaster. I want to get off and my money back.
Mental status right now = somewhere between zoned out numbness and seriously pissed off.
Strongly considering ostrich tactics at the moment.
Thanks for listening. :/
Well the whole thing went sideways and turned into me leaving work in a shaky, teary eyed mess. My goodness this thing still rocks you when least expect it.
Here we go again with another fucking ambiguous result about the mystical eliptical thingamajjigy that has taken up residence in the rogue boob. Said thingy has decided to grow 2mm in 6 months. BIRAIDS score now moved up from a 3 to a 4 and hey lets poke a needle in it this time. This presents a problem. Considering the MRI is still the only machine that can see thingy (again it can't be felt by anyone either) and it's positioning, it is probable that a biopsy can't be done in the MRI machine. Still waiting on an answer for that one.
So do we just poke around in there and try to hit it?? Cut it out or off just for the heck of it?
No body is prepared to say it is anything sinister nor are they prepared to say it's not.
Seriously, can someone please tell me how, for the love of god, you can have 4 MRI's, 4 mammograms and 6 u/sounds in a period of 12 months and still not know what this is or isn't.
So as it sits, back to headlining the MDT on Thursday to get input from group of guru's as quote "my breast don't scan normally". Another targetted u/s on Friday. And wait for an answer on whether the biopsy can be done by MRI.
Waiting waiting waiting yet again. Fuckity fuck fuck. I am sick of this roller coaster. I want to get off and my money back.
Mental status right now = somewhere between zoned out numbness and seriously pissed off.
Strongly considering ostrich tactics at the moment.
Thanks for listening. :/
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- I know thinking with your gut makes no sense - but sometimes it does. Go with what you feel is best. Best wishes.
I know I said I was over caring who took this thing out but it really wasn't sitting right with me. I just had this nagging uneasy feeling about a surgeon that I had not really had anything to do with. I can't explain it but it was really giving me the heebie jeebies so I have pushed back having the mystery thingy removed until my surgeon gets back in December.
I feel a lot better about it now having done that and nobody was of the opinion that it must be done right away. It’s taken so long to heal to a pretty comfortable level that I am loathe to disturb it again. I trust her and her reputation for neat, tidy work and attention to the cosmetic outcome as well as just removing the nasties is excellent.
xoxoxo- You have had a drought one of it for sure. I hope the surgery goes well, and that is turns out to be something benign.
- Right. After absorbing all that, the only reasonable thing to do is drink wine in sympathy. Glug glug MXX
- Sending good vibes from here, I'm sure getting it taken out will be the best for your peace of mind even if its benign as presumed. Horrible to have to go back to surgery again though either way.
ps by coincidence I found my lump the day before my twin sons turned 18, it was April Fool's Day! - Thinking of you, lots of prayers coming your way and hoping it is something minor. Waiting does indeed suck!
- Thank you ladies.
@Kmakm, yep he's going to open the original scar and take it out. Apparently its very close to the surface so hopefully it won't be too drastic.
I'm not overly concerned about the wait time, it's not going to do anything in a couple of weeks. It's just all a bit frustrating to say the least and I'm just a bit scared of the results. You guys all know how that feels.
I most definitely enjoyed the traminer. DH certainly does have a way with words at times. LOL.
Big hugs to all.
xoxoxo - Bloody hell... I hope you enjoyed your drinks as you damn well deserved them after that. Can't blame you for bailing. Time to know straight up what's going on.
- Oh @kezmusc, honestly, you really are having a rough time. You just wouldn't credit it. So is the idea now to open you up and have a look and remove 'it'?
Also "cut that fucker off straight up"... I had to smile. Great turn of phrase your DH has!
You hang in there. We're with you, K xox - Farout @kezmusc, you are having a crap time of it!!!
I hope you don't have to wait too long for surgery and some answers, the wiating is hell!
Here's hoping for positive news so you can get on with your life without worrying about it!!
Best wishes lovely xxx
