Hi Tracy
you don't have to be strong all of the time. It's perfectly natural and acceptable to say that you don't want to do this anymore. I remember writing a very similar post when I was 4 months into chemo. Your body is screaming at you to stop but your mind knows that you have no choice but to continue on. You know that you will continue on but it doesn't mean you have to like it. You've come so far but still have so far to go. Take one day at a time. Tomorrow is another day. Plan something nice for the days that you do feel ok. I just kept telling myself "short term pain for long term gain". Hang in there and I hope you feel a bit brighter soon. Karen xox