Prosthesis - I can’t stop crying
hi all so my story is found a lump in feb, lumpectomy in March, sentinel Node op in April then mastectomy And lymph nodes removed on right breast in may i am very lucky in that I Do not need chemo n...
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Dear @Lisa_E66
Your emotion is probably at least in part due to everything you have been through to this point. It can catch up
with you, especially if there is a trigger. It’s also about reality - you are wearing a prosthesis, it’s not you, it never will be and not unnaturally that makes you sad.
I too had big breasts - I didn’t manage to get a prosthesis for 12 months because of a persistent, large seroma and when I did, I wondered how I would ever manage. I was sick of a soft pad that never stayed put but it was light and generally inoffensive. The prosthesis was big, pink, silicone-y and unwieldy. I thought I would never get the knack of inserting it, even tried putting it in before putting my bra on - that was like trying to manage a brick in a sock! But it got better, and easier. That was nearly eight years ago - no reconstruction, have a swimming prosthesis too (the sports model!) and comfortable with it all.
I assume you have had a professional fitter? That can make a difference. Mine proposed a bra I would not have chosen myself but which turned out to be both comfortable and improved my posture.
Just give it a bit longer. You’re expecting yourself to adjust to a lot of things in a very short time. You want the old you back and the prosthesis is a reminder of the change that has occurred. Normal? You bet! And don’t be sorry, we all need to kick something (preferably inanimate) from time to time. Best wishes.
Your emotion is probably at least in part due to everything you have been through to this point. It can catch up
with you, especially if there is a trigger. It’s also about reality - you are wearing a prosthesis, it’s not you, it never will be and not unnaturally that makes you sad.
I too had big breasts - I didn’t manage to get a prosthesis for 12 months because of a persistent, large seroma and when I did, I wondered how I would ever manage. I was sick of a soft pad that never stayed put but it was light and generally inoffensive. The prosthesis was big, pink, silicone-y and unwieldy. I thought I would never get the knack of inserting it, even tried putting it in before putting my bra on - that was like trying to manage a brick in a sock! But it got better, and easier. That was nearly eight years ago - no reconstruction, have a swimming prosthesis too (the sports model!) and comfortable with it all.
I assume you have had a professional fitter? That can make a difference. Mine proposed a bra I would not have chosen myself but which turned out to be both comfortable and improved my posture.
Just give it a bit longer. You’re expecting yourself to adjust to a lot of things in a very short time. You want the old you back and the prosthesis is a reminder of the change that has occurred. Normal? You bet! And don’t be sorry, we all need to kick something (preferably inanimate) from time to time. Best wishes.