Gerry, I agree the anxiety is so hard, I do think once you start you'll be closer to the finish, and it may not be as bad as you have thought. I found taxol different to FEC, easier in some ways but I didnt cope with any of the chemo, but I got through it :) best thing I found was, I only looked at a day...I didnt think beyond that, it kept me in the moment and helped alot. Hugs Melinda xo