Hi @Tasia,
Sorry to hear you are having a hard time. Im still on Taxol after doing AC. They are both crap but different. Taxol seems like it is a bit more unrelenting to me as it usually gets delivered in shorter durations and there are more of them. I feel a bit depressed in the 2 or 3 days after delivery as energy levels plummet, the other symptoms fire up. It feels like all the good things in me are dying and nothing will ever be good again. But as the next one rolls around suddenly i feel a bit better though it is only a couple of days to "enjoy". Is it like that for you?
I think you are amazing doing it on your own and living alone but do you need to? Your adult children you could confide that some days are rough and encourage them to give you a call. Maybe they could drop by with some shopping and a cuppa. Ive had a few very low moments and rang my 70ish parents to tell them i feel im going mentally a bit wierd and would love a cuppa. Even when still feeling unwell that can lift you. Its not about not coping but allowing others to be part of the experience and hear about their lives , offering hope that other experiences are out there.
I cross off each chemo on my calendar and silently high five myself for surviving snother week.
Sending you a hug and hoping it gets a bit easier.
Michele
